Fail.

身体真的不如以往了。。

funny thing is, had fever n flu last yr but managed a pass.
this time, failed.

i guess when u don't exercise, the body really "degenerate". so what if i had gold last time?
都说了，是过去。sigh..

Other stations deproved too.

1. pullup: scanner didn't record 1.
2. situp: had difficulty lifting myself towards the end (omg.)
3. shuttle: felt like my body 慢三拍, everything in slow-motion.
4. jump: just couldn't hit desired distance.
5. run: stitches right at the start, each step i took, the pain just escalated (ouch.)

To think i could get a silver (<11m) or even a pass (<12m20s). STUPID STITCHES!
Oh wells, try again next month sigh.

今晚，就让我一个人看星星。

Encouragement from friends do make one feel better though.
Individual messages and even quotes like "失败乃成功之母" were given to me.
Thank you all. :)

大家晚安~

Looking forward to a better test nxt mth!

病虫快走

好久没生病了……一来，就轰轰烈烈的，病虫好不乖！
声音沙哑、喉咙热痛、鼻涕直流、身体发烫、双腿发软。
真希望你，病虫，赶紧离开，好让我应付 19，20 Nov 的考试！

古典文学、文字学……谁怕！:b

最近领养了一只兔子，它的名字是 BOYO。
Hehe, 今天学会把它抱在怀里（温暖极了），也学会怎么把它放回笼子里。
全家人都很疼它，真幸福！
就连爸爸也突然童心大发，一粒接着一粒地喂它吃饲料，嘴巴还不停地发出“吱吱”的声音。



Lazily lying at a corner.

不要再长大了哈哈！健康、快乐就好，要不然笼子将容不下你的体积！
该休息了，大家晚安。:)

台湾之旅，等不及啦~ ^^

Audition "Impresario 2013"

Going for an audition for the second time.
感觉还蛮不错的！:D

She came out giving me a heads up, "The standard is really high. They gave very direct comments, more attitude, actions, feelings, voice too sweet already..." First time seeing her so flustered, what's more, during a singing audition.

*Excitement level shoots up* woooo~

"Yup, you guys are next. Come come.", the friendly crew gestured with a wave of his hand.
(Seriously, the crew there were all very friendly! At registration booth, at briefing station, at ushering station etc. First time meeting them but yet they were so supportive as though we were close frineds, "加油！Good luck!")

Entered the room with at least 12 pairs of eyes staring at us.

• 2 judges (Jayden & Jay Lim if im not wrong)
• >10 crew
• 1 videocamera man

Music start -- 珊瑚海 -- Comments from judges

1. 音量足够
2. 要有主次之分，男生应带领。倘若女生带领，就好像她整首歌都在骂你！(Everyone LOL-ed! hahaha!)
3. 太 flat 了！
4. Must have accent, you're like trying to catch the right pitch instead of focusing on the song.

Haha. I still have lots to learn! But i guess, the $17 registration fee was worth it. Like a mini singing lesson by two famous singing teachers!

What made me quite stunned with delight was.. The crew actually wanted to take pictures with us hahah! Like fans meeting their idols. Signing document halfway and they just pop up beside us lol. ^^

E (Miss 510) told us the crew outside were amazed by our voice! :)
听了真开心，至少感动到一群人。
对我来说，这样已经是成功了。
晋级与否，顺其自然！

We've made it, already.

Results out end December.
More updates on Impresario in a few month's time.
大家晚安~

oh oh! Z proposed few days back in Batam! woo 大嫂~ ^^

诗人

望着阴冷的天空，
突然觉得心里富有诗意，就 ...


乌黑之物，循循显露。

天色灰蒙，仅露一线。

黑点四处，徘徊似物。

流连忘返，乌合已故。

 

                           ~  田 ~

初次 • 恳求 • 见谅 （´-`）

Audition

First time auditioning for a singing competition. [uid, level 3, cove]

Jitters for sure, but at a point in time, felt touched that there were so many friends supporting. <3

We did our best, we can only hope for the best. :)
最重要的是，尝试过、表现过、享受过。

A Promise: If one goes out, the other MUST stay and persist till the end. No giving up; shine on.

1st - $188 (treats for family, friends and of course, ourselves) ^^


珊瑚海、爷爷、没那么简单 ...

十年

Dad's 60th

A simple dinner at 秀才 wif 阿嬷 n relatives, followed by karaoke drained everybody's energy lol.
To make it memorable, i tapped on my artsy side to make a bdae card for daddy. Although we wrapped an angbao for dad, he was only engrossed in the writings on the card haa. 钱，在自制卡片旁，毫无看头。:)

Ohana Day (十周年)

Immediately after K, i chionged down to costa sands so tt i could c lovely ohanies <3 i mus say, the trip down was worth it. Despite strong opposition frm dad n mum (都这么迟了，不要去! 你还要去啊?!), i persisted lol. Gift exchange was filled wif laughter (zhi's epic drawings, L stories HAHA), unique gifts (zr's must-return policy), bare your soul (yc's song, message etc) and much more.. A really great decade.

可惜，maxie cmi! Sobs.. But forgiven due to health issues. Glad he's alright now. Cont wif ur fruit m veg diet! Hopefully we can have a complete gathering soon. :)

思念

刚才在厕所，突然想起外婆 (popo) 与姨丈。
希望他们在天上无忧无虑，过得愉快。
虽然不挂在嘴边说，但我相信大家心里还想念着你们俩。


Time for bed.
G'nite world. :)

For the first time.

Camp Ragnarök 2012

It was an exhilarating three-day camp where i saw people do/say things beyond self, beyond boundaries.

I must say, I was abit shocked at my own "rara-ness" too haha. :b

04/08/12:

They started strolling in, group by group. We greeted them with big smiles on our faces. Some looked apprehensive, while others exuded a tad of enthusiasm. After a few rounds of simple introduction n icebreakers, we started walking around the big campus.

Open War was conducted in the afternoon. Mini station games were played. Haha, to think we were already noticing their every actions n speech even before we knew we had to choose a Best Freshie (from 4 groups). Nevertheless, i felt that each of them had a particular strength which i adored.

Night came and screams echoed throughout the hallway.
Q: "Who is the One?"
A: "Perd Lao Mei!"
woo a mystery/horror walk arnd campus to solve a murder case, a very refreshing idea indeed :)

05/08/12:

Rise & Shine at 0700hrs for.. breakfast, followed by "Clash of the Titans" (a.k.a. Amazing Race).
After travelling for half a day, everyone's legs were aching and im sure energy levels dipped a little.

Reflections at night allowed freshies to reflect on
- what went wrong?
- what went right?
- how to improve for future camps?
(a little bit of grp reflection was done too.. albeit a little too brief due to time shortage :/ )

Jeremiah's bdae surprise by THOR, Mojo, Camp Destiny ex-co at 1220hrs~ ^^ i guess he was really touched, his "thank you" speech was filled to the brim wif emotions!

haha asking ppl to meet me in the dark canteen just to write their bdae wishes on the card, coordinating where to meet b4 surprise, how to keep him occupied so we can do all the abovementioned.. was all worth it :)

creamy fruity cake

To think i got spotted (sian to e max).
J: yy!
me: (stunned. look in direction. continue walking)
J: (pause) yy! is that you? 你在做什么？
me: (siao liao siao liao. scurries to canteen. LOL)

After sending freshies off to bed at 0200hrs, some of us seniors had our own HTHT! :D haha, or rather a post-pract sharing of experience & emotions :) off to bed at 0430hrs.

06/08/12

Final day of camp.

We, THOR seniors were treated like VIPs during breakfast. They kept asking us to sit while they served breakfast to us, and.. gave us handmade cards awww~ (pitch goes up lol). Really touched as i didn't expect freshies to give seniors gifts durin their camp! haa. a truly unforgettable first time :')

Uber Frisbee saw THOR, LOKI, ODIN & FREYR playing against each other. The ultimate match would be the last, where "Seniors VS. Freshies" matches were played. It was definitely tiring as everyone played their best for this event!

"Must win, must win. Just 1 more point to do better than the prev match. Must mark this guy. C'mon, faster yy, swift actions!" haha thoughts were running through my mind omg. but i must say, it was really enjoyable. even fostered relations among seniors.

Final score: 13 - 7. WOHOO! xD

The final event of camp (i shall call it - reflections via the intertwining of string) witnessed tears of mixed emotions as groups did their own reflections, verbally expressing our own thoughts abt each member of the group.

OK, i admit. Tears welled up in my eyes n my nose just kept leaking lol. They not only learned from us, we learned as much from them too. Their words of gratitude n encouragement, knowing tt this is my first time, made me feel i've accomplished my goal of establishing a close bond among them.

Assistant Group Leader (AGL)

A truly unforgettable experience. :')

Annoymous Mei, "Don't know why but just being with you makes ppl feel happy. U got tt aura." ^^

关怀 - 孝心

今天，可说是我最自我满意的一天。 准备了几天，终于如我所预料的，他们哭了。

观看、感受、联想、感动。

很庆幸他们也很开放，愿意分享个人经历。 从中，也让我更进一步地了解这群 5-4 的孩子们。 接近尾声，他们的眼神像在暗示我：我明白了，谢谢。

我的心在笑。

我告诉自己：这堂，成功了。

教？

教科目、教技巧、教礼貌、教交际、教人生。

金玉良言

＂现在像喝药，以后就像喝水。＂ 妈妈的话，始终充满爱。 我会加油的！

新环境

New environment.

3rd n final day of meeting b4 sch starts. Hmm nice bunch of ppl i mus say. Of cos, the standard is high. Expectations naturally go up.

Kena "我lunteered" by my see tee to present in front of 170+ 同道人 lol. Luckily she was satisfied, nodding and am-chioing away haha. Other see tee full of motherly vibe, very helpful. :)
Ahh, mus nt disappoint them!

Tmw meetin him for pre-talk. Heard so many -ve things frm reliable sources.
Argh, no matter wad, jiayou!

twenty-two!

This year's bdae felt v warm n blessed. Don't know exactly why but could really feel the sincerity from well-wishers whether through actions or words.

As some friends were overseas, it felt even better that they could still rem n bother to post a simple bday wish or send a msg via their handphone. Some places they were at included taiwan, europe, malaysia, even mumbai!

The best part was at nite. I thought, 吃了晚餐就草草了事 haha. Didn't expect them to secretly buy a cake while dad, xy n i were waiting ha! Photo-taking, singing, eating (just abit) all felt so waaaaarm! Glad my bdae managed to bring smiles to ppl's faces. ^^

讲真的，还真不舍得打开小龟龟s 呢!但又迫不及待地想看里头都写了什么! rofl. Haa posted in woi "happy bdae to me~ ^^" n random players pmed bdae wishes. Some even ended chatting with me about music (?!) haha! 人间有爱? lol.

xy, "my fren said u can go tw 发展 wif ur type of face." o.o wad type seh? Lol. Oh wells, take it as compliment la haha! Ohmy, write halfway fall aslp, finally completed on a sunday morning~

p.s : have a safe trip to batam 爸妈!

Life = Ups + Downs ?

14 - 18 May 2012

We <3 Hong Kong! :) Time seemed to fly so quickly when we were there. The few "family meetings" late at night made the trip seem so warm and family-like haha. Thank you ZR, YC & Bulandon for making this trip possible! A second time back in HK and the feeling felt so different. Brand new experience.

Hotel :

• Silka West Kowloon Hotel (cute sq shower, one would hit the wall n slump to the floor should one faint, tt's how small our shower was lol)

Places :

• Victoria Peak (428m above ground level, where the rich congregate)
• Madame Tussaudes (where we saw 周杰伦、阮经天、张柏芝、Robert Pattinson etc)
• Ocean Park (due to the rain, we got wet even before trying out the rides! roller-coasters, funfair games, fountain show, juggler show, zoo which keeps pandas, goldfishes, sealions, seals, dolphins, jellyfishes. the whole concept of having a themepark on a mountain was refreshing)
• Lantau Island (cable car woo! prayed at the temple, ate some local snacks, veg set meal for approx $10, walked up the long flight of steps to c the buddha statue, saw Anita Mui's 灵位)
• 女人街 (where we 吃东西、买东西、吃东西、买东西 hehe, blue clutch, lighters, clothes, watches, hp casing, folder etc)
• Lan Kwai Fong (went to look see look see)
• Mongkok (where we often walk about)

Food :

• 云吞面 (no char siew, only fresh prawns wrapped inside)
• 红莲冰糖嫩雪蛤
• 猪肠粉 (exact texture as dolbokki!)
• chwee kueh with red bean inside
• 低糖红豆维他奶
• 牛腩面 (shiok!)
• 老婆饼

Of course, our lovely tour guides were so warm n friendly! (Eric, Joey, Carlo)
And we waited for our Cathay plane at the airport playing round after round of Saboteur ;)


24 - 25 May 2012

Camp RagnarӦk 2012. Exact same feel as Camp Destiny 2011, just that now, it is our Seniors' Camp! I'm so glad most of my batch could make it. I guess it brought back all the memories of my first time in 捏, so fresh, so surreal, so carefree. Although we were split into different groups to simulate the upcoming camp for freshies, the final BBQ brought us all together where we simply made a hell lot of noise and ate lots of yummy food (the food just kept coming!) lol.

I must say, the camp this time round has lots of interesting and refreshing elements. Out-of-school, fright night etc. Lots of suspense and nice scenery! Ahh envy envy. If only i could become a freshie again lol. I enjoyed it to the max, really. OGL, station master, actor. Hmm, come what may, i'm sure it'd b fun. Because i know we will stick tgt, ensuring our freshies enjoy, ensuring we enjoy ourselves as well. ;) We even got to know nice ppl frm TTC! :)

'Destiny' to 'RagnarӦk' : Let the flame pass on! :o


27 May 2012

Brought mum to c the dentist. After much deliberation, i'm glad she finally dared to face reality. Haha. This 大婶 ah.. only know how to scare ppl nia lol. Shopping with mum always feel so comfy. I set the things to see, she sets the pace. Without saying a word, she knew i wanted to buy shoes. O.O" stunned, i asked her how did she know. She replied, "You said your shoes had holes remember?" She listens and remembers. (although nowadays she's quite forgetful sigh :/)

Anyway, here's a pic of one of our loot! :D

Goodbye old Puma, Hello new Puma (at a 50% disc price!!)

Results out, deproved by 0.02 :(


going to "cultivate talent" tmw afternoon eeks

Start / End

After happily completing my last paper (duno why but i just had this sick enjoyment when doing my last paper lol), it was the start of the jam-packed holiday! People start asking u out like u're a celebrity. U'd even have to mark down all the impt dates n time in ur calender lest u forget them n incidentally cause someone else's black face. Haha.

当天，特别的成绩也出炉了。有些得到＂五月的花＂，有些拿到＂猪笼＂，而有些遇到＂圣人＂。我呢，只盼望能培养至少30人的潜在才华。不知环境将会是怎样，但昨天与家人看了它的外表，觉得它帅呆了。洁白的皮肤，似乎绽放一种恰似新衣服的香味。它高得威猛，使我立即萧然起敬。希望在那个地方能学到更多宝贵的知识、获得难忘的经验、领悟发人深省的道理。

Besides playing com games, i just simply enjoy the get-together with family n friends. Bonding over food, games or simply just nothing but ourselves make me feel so "lovey-dovey" all over. Last nite's stayover was kinda like a "matured" version of O which i adore. Of course, we were still our crazy selves, but the atmosphere just felt different. It was as though we could have proper conversations w/o any interruptions or whatsoever. Ho seh la. :)

Gong gong was in a gd condition when we visited yesterday. Perhaps, her (lotus flower) call was necessary to serve as a reminder. He could sort of recognise us when we waved n called out to him. Letting out a low grunt n a wave from him was enough. Ma ma then fed him the 鸡脚面 that we bought. Heh, think he could recognise it when ma ma was waving the feet in front of him. I hope i can see more instances of her feeding him. It just feels warm.

X leaving for aus n cn tonite for work. I wish him a safe n pleasant (dun care that it's purely for work lol) trip. To all who are busy working or playing or just lazing around, be safe and sound! ^^

*stupid ring-a-ling, stop asking me to do things during my holiday! Call n call non-stop omg. There are 2 BMs, not just me alone. If escaping to other places can immune her from work, im gonna get an air ticket n fly!

Solutions?

It's always like this, happy start but sad ending. Without knowing what hit me, everything seems to crumble like a tower of cards when it meets the wind.

Stepping into my nest, i only saw a single soul, with the papers in his hands n the screen emitting rays of gloom. I tried to strike a conversation but all i got were monosyllabic replies. I hoped for food but only packet noodles n refigerated pieces of eggplant n chicken awaited me.

I'm missing out their lives. Did i even bother to ask them? Congratulate them for their new nest? I'm extricating myself out of my circle of friends. Should i get married nxt time, who do i invite? Who would come? Forever alone indeed. Good job, 冰山公子..

Now i lay in bed feeling all stuffy n angsty. Don't know what to think, that's all. I don't zone out. I just do not know what to say, for words can only harm ppl that i treasure. I'd rather stay silent. Not to spite u or anything in case u're wondering.

Sleep well kaito, u've an exam in 3 days time. Jiayou.
Health is wealth.

好累啊！

exams are approaching, day after tomorrow chi lit! omg.

先苦后甜, sth i believe in. hope i can live up to this phrase. haa.

press on kaito!

just tahan for another wk.

more "tests" to come in july.

到时候，得靠自己了。

加油！

种西瓜

种西瓜呀种西瓜，

撒下种子，
担心它会不会长大。

发芽以后，
只觉得它真可爱。

成熟之后，
希望它永远多汁多味。

忽略了它，
再也种不出以前的大西瓜。

那么一次，
造成终生的损害。

伤。

superficial me

Quest for flawless complexion

We always say inner beauty is what defines us, but does it really hold true in today's society?
Has it always been just a standard norm which we hope to believe in?

CreateTalents halted my footsteps agn at orchard mrt. I begin to wonder, is it because of my gullible face..
Enough thinking, good night world.

蜘蛛

Yummy korean food from Kim Dae Mun (foodcourt beside Concorde Hotel) for lunch.
Thx for recommending B!

Came back home with some loot after a whole afternoon! :)

jeans

shirt, shorts, socks

Why didn't I have the courage to tell him there was a spider in his hair?
Just stretch my arm halfway and a simple tap on his shoulder would do.

If the spider was in my hair, I'd have wished someone told me.
Thankfully, it crawled up to the bus ceiling.

Sigh. 自卑，跟陌生人讲话，有什么好怕的。以后要更加勇敢！


A&F - overhyped? "hey, how's it going?" omg so americanised.

Recess Week

yay shopping tomorrow weeee~
guilty guilty*
jus bgt 2 tops frm uniqlo 2 wkends ago hehe.

no choice. gotta expand my wardrobe wif classic clothing hahaha.
those that can be worn again n again without me feeling bored!

still nt used to shopping wif B alone lol. although i reali admire his spontaneity. bah, it's just a simple chill "window-shopping" outing. 怕什么尴尬呀 tsktsk.

off to bed! :)


stop procastinating and start completing all assignments!

感谢您

一代的著名歌手又去世了。

小时候常听您的歌曲。与其说我主动听，不如说我是在耳濡目染下懂得欣赏您的歌声。
掌声响起来，演唱会已落幕了。

希望来世再为我们献唱、让我们沉浸在您美丽的歌声中。

感谢您。鳳飛飛。

..

有时候，真的不知道还能不能撑下去。
身体痛、心也痛。
好想呐喊、但喊不出。
只觉得胸口很重。

storm before rainbow?

So much drama before Chinese New Year. Sigh.

Hostel student commits suicide, a kin witnessed someone who jumped to his death, the same kin admitted to hospital due to breathin difficulties, a baby bird dropped down from its nest.

今晚的团圆饭，还吃得成吗？ I hope her results show tt she's alright. CT scan now. :( first time in my life so far tt i've doubts whether all could make it for reunion dinner. Hope everything turns out well.

- fingers crossed


昨晚还在拼命地敲白果壳呢..

距离

原来，面带笑容就行了。

住在彼此的对面，却从未交谈。
“能帮我开门吗？”
“哦，可以。”
“谢谢你啊。”
“不用。”
:)
(:

XSQ

一失足成千古恨，再回头已百年人。

每一个错误，都要付出惨痛的代价。

错误越大，代价越惨痛。

做了错事，良心不安，别人痛苦，自己更痛苦。

- 百度百科

the chase

＂他走到车站了！＂

He missed her by an hour. She left at 815, he came n loitered arnd at 915. Dad n i gave chase, but he was crafty. Past a corner n he immediately took flight. When i chased after, he walked briskly. Haa, i even passed by a friend's hse.

The uniformed pair was slow. Zz. Even when they came from the direction that he was heading towards. Im sure they had the power to stop the bus, but nope, they didn't. Hopefully she tells him that she's no longer here.

I guess what pained me most was how that idiot managed to ruin a mother's life just like that. Being sent home half a year earlier. If he really loved her, he shouldn't have gotten her into this mess. Maybe he's cheating her.. Ah. So many thoughts.

龟龟 also lost an endearing friend. The daily baths, walks, cuddles. Sigh. She broke down instantly when someone said "throw away la, nobody take care already." she pleaded me not to throw 龟龟. Well of course i would never. I guess that someone just wanted to make her feel remorseful. :'( it pains me.

I hope she'll keep the picture i took of her n 龟龟. More importantly, the msg which i wrote last night. "... Always think of your children before you do anything next time." 想必，飞机已起飞了。希望她自我反省，回去做个好女儿、好母亲。

背叛 . 失望

To think we treated her so well. She was truthfully one of the best out of so many we've encountered.

They don't believe her story, but i personally do. I mean, she even said she'll do her best n behave till june when her contract expires. It must be that the guy came to look for her on his own accord. What didn't struck him was tt one of us was at home. Luckily we notified X at hm. Yes he may b worried out of love, but why didn't u ask him to leave out of love?

The police was called in, inevitably. It was the 2nd time he came into our hse w/o our consent. Tears poured, even feigned (or not) insanity. Holding a knife to her wrist. Sigh. There goes our dinner plan.

And she even wished me a happy new year this morning. Really feel like cryin while eatin now. Feels as though a close friend stabbed my back over n over. :( no choice but to 送她回了。她也心甘情愿。我想，这是最好的决定。双方都满意。

Please just be like when u first came for just these few days. U'll be reunited with ur family soon. I wish u.. All the best for your future life. Thank you for the 1.5 yrs so far.

Hurt. On the first day of 2012.