背叛 . 失望

To think we treated her so well. She was truthfully one of the best out of so many we've encountered.

They don't believe her story, but i personally do. I mean, she even said she'll do her best n behave till june when her contract expires. It must be that the guy came to look for her on his own accord. What didn't struck him was tt one of us was at home. Luckily we notified X at hm. Yes he may b worried out of love, but why didn't u ask him to leave out of love?

The police was called in, inevitably. It was the 2nd time he came into our hse w/o our consent. Tears poured, even feigned (or not) insanity. Holding a knife to her wrist. Sigh. There goes our dinner plan.

And she even wished me a happy new year this morning. Really feel like cryin while eatin now. Feels as though a close friend stabbed my back over n over. :( no choice but to 送她回了。她也心甘情愿。我想，这是最好的决定。双方都满意。

Please just be like when u first came for just these few days. U'll be reunited with ur family soon. I wish u.. All the best for your future life. Thank you for the 1.5 yrs so far.

Hurt. On the first day of 2012.

faith

"Will you do my eulogy?"

finally completed Have a Little Faith yesterday evening.
first time reading and completing a book at starbucks haha. with a grande white choc mocha~

as a free-thinker, i always find it hard to believe in god etc. i'm open to the teachings of religion but definitely not a devout believer.
just like Mitch, i always questioned, "if he was so sincere, why did that person face adversity all the time? how was He going to help mend the hole in the roof?"
i guess sometimes.. it's the mindset that these people have, together with their religion acting as a catalyst which empower them to become positive and optimistic individuals.

well, here are some takeaways:

1. Your god, our god - Faith tells people to do charitable acts and aid the poor, no matter who is the receiver.
2. What is there that forgiveness cannot achieve?
3. Anger - It churns you up inside. It does you more harm than the object of your anger.
4. Try again. (two simple words but we always find it so agonising to do)
5. When we miss them, look up. Know that they're watching over us.

this is not a post about religion, just a short reflection after reading the book.
i shall end with a quote from the book, "We who are born, are born to die."

sad fact, but very true.
however, it is up to us to decide the way we live, whether we want to live meaningfully or not. even if it's for a short time, be glad that we managed to come into this world, managed to touch others' lives.. :)

there's always enough time for procastination, but never enough for showing them your love.

perhaps a good hair day

"We want you for print advertisements, TV commercials, Editorials, Runways, Drama, Fashion Events, Corporate Videos and more..."

"We see people a little differently"

haha. and i thought it was the guy whose watch scratched against mine at ion.
good hair day? maybe.
or maybe i dressed weirdly (like what my friend suggested)

 


 

true or false

o wells, 顺其自然.. can a model be cultivated? i suppose anything's possible ;)
goodnite to all~

exams

opps i know i shouldn't b here. but, it's been so long since i last visited
my tiny shed.

time really flies. in the blink of an eye, it's already november! argh exam week too. lots of people say how lucky i am because i only have to sit for 2 papers - 15th & 18th Nov. (woots one down, one more to go) what they don't understand is, how difficult it is for me to familiarise myself with studying the nitty-gritty details of the language. what's more, sitting for 2.5 hour chinese papers. hahaha.

hmm, but no time to waste complaining. when life gives u lemons, SQUEEZE them! (o_o) lol. i'm very sure i wont b able to score an A in this sem. 不了解的实在太多了.. must mug hard for next sem!

certain unpleasant experiences happened to some people i know. just want to let them know, i'll always try my best to help in whatever way possible. it is always difficult to say goodbye, but what's most impt is keeping the pleasant memories in one's heart and think about them whenever one feels like. that was an advice which i received from my friend last time. i think it worked for me, over time.

finishing my chilli crab cup noodles. gotta finish it quickly n slp! prepare for friday's paper! sigh gotta apologise toT廖 for turning down her invitation to her house for gathering.. she sounded so sincere and nice..

“你有空吗？星期四有聚会，他们都会来我家。很难得的机会。”

after sending my "rejection sms", (sigh) she replied “没关系，考试重要。只是觉得有点遗憾，因为大家要安排一次聚会还真不容易。但你安心备考吧，考试只有一次。”my heart really sunk..

ah, oh my. getting late! g'nite everyone :)

cant wait for exams to end!

tired. enough.

how much more can we take?

fourth time already.

she even came over and started a drama. do u noe she labels u with a vulgarity? how dare she insult not only you, but us too. im nt sure if this has gt anythin to do wif her, or issit just ur lack of self-control.

pls, just stop this never-ending story. we're tired physically and even more so, emotionally.
i reali dont know how many more times before they totally give up.

i cant imagine how much pain they're feeling; how much tears have been shed. 

is this worth it?
twenty plus years, all down the drain?

reflect on ur actions when you're sober. it seems no matter how much we say, it just cant get in. i can only hope that u'd gain a realisation someday. if we're not around, what would become of you?

-exhausted

glogster. woah.

hmm quite fun lol. but how to use this ICT tool leh? haha.

http://tianwaiwai.glogster.com/thesadme/

just trying out~ :b

whew

wa september le. so long since i last blogged haha. sch life is getting more.. interesting? haha another word for BUSY! ahh. more projs n indiv assignments pouring in. one step a time, tt's wad i always tell loomie. heh. hope i can maintain this approach too, dun stress myself so much! if others can do it, i can too. jus a step at a time :)

whew. went for inter-blk games (IBG); relay. haha kena persuaded by loomie, guess i wanted to try out too. 更何况，兴趣嘛。wow, they're really fast n strong (bcos they jus dun seem tired, can run at constant FAST spd woosh). ran 3 rounds arnd nie triangle. hoho runnin arnd campus at 2300hrs. 7th. out of hw many guys? hm nt v sure. but i guess it was 1.89km in 7mins? nt gd enuf apparently argh.

o wells, at least i tried my best n ran like MAD at the las lap hehe. as i was feeling giddy aft tt, he bgt chic burger frm mac for me yay. 还请我吃呢。感动 :) i guess 礼尚往来真的会让双方都感到开心。(treated him to $7+ pandan mooncake day before. wa, hall 骗钱啊！2 mooncakes $15.. -.-)

"angel-mortal" reali allowed me to c the character of peeps too. i expected better, furthermore u were a pageant contestant. tsktsk, turnoff. ur insides were bad, so what if u look like a bright shiny apple?

y: "did u receive my gift?"
t: "erm, ya. walao u're a lousy angel leh."
y: "huh? why?"
(turns arnd n look for a fellow male pageant contestant to sit with)
y: *appalled by her behaviour* rolls eyes. haha no la.

i feel sad for you, you superficial creature.
on the other hand, my mortal was brilliant haha. so warm n friendly! well, at least she's appreciative of the gift i got her. thx for the nice hand-made frame :) reali love it. all e best for ur post in jcrc!

good nite world! oh, my back's gonna ache like crazy tmw haha!